Fear is a nasty part of every one's life. I have been thinking over our adoption and remembered the fear that plagued Bryan's heart for a while. He didn't want to talk about adoption due to the fact that he feared some aspects of the whole process.
It is very common for women to have a heart for adoption, but for her husband to be very reluctant. Bryan biggest hang ups were the fears that he wouldn't be able to love the child as much as he loved our biological children. Please don't get me wrong. Bryan loves children and always has, but he only wanted to bring a child into our family if he could love, care, and treat the little one as if she came from my womb so the fear of the unknown plagued his thoughts.
The second reason that caused him to be reluctant was the dreaded "M" word...money. He didn't know if we could afford to adopt and provide for a seventh child on one income. Being the only bread winner, Bryan felt the weight on the financial part of adoption.
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| Our first precious moment with Myla |
Praise the Lord! Bryan was able to fear the Lord more. He was able to be obedient to the calling on our family and push the feelings of doubt aside.
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| Bryan's first kiss |
Praise the Lord! I can tell you that Bryan loves his little baby girl as if she came from my womb. Fear turned into love the moment that he held her for the first time. I will never forget the protection and love that oozed out of his heart the day he saw her in the hospital nursery.
Praise the Lord! Bryan says these three things everyday:
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| Daddy and His Angel |
She is soo easy to love!
I have such a strong need to protect her!
She is an angel...the best baby.
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| She loves sleeping in the safety of her Daddy's arm |
Our Lord is a God that can turn fear into love.
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