There are many things about adoption that no one can prepare you for. Things that creep up so suddenly that they knock you off of your feet. For me, one of these things was the feelings that I have for our birth mother.
When we were told that our birth mother chose us, I was filled with gratitude. I was filled with wonder for why she would choose us. I found myself thinking and praying for her at all times of the day. There were even times when I have been seen wiping tears from my eyes when I would think about her.
We live in a time where it would be much easier for moms like ours to just abort the baby. No one would know. She could go on with her life without the judgement from the world around her. It is by God's grace that she chose life and is now choosing to place that life into our hearts and hands. It is overwhelming...an overwhelming love that grows in your heart.
She is a selfless women. She knows the pain that is coming. She is doing all that she can to protect herself from the hurt, but it lingers in her everyday life. She is aware that she couldn't provide for another child so she is looking to us to do the job for her. Pain, Selflessness, and Sacrifice are part of her everyday life.
Please pray with me as we try to walk out this journey together. We will forever be bonded by the life of this little one soon to come. Pray for my sister. Pray for me to be what she needs no matter how little or how much that is. Pray for the place of my heart that she now resides in.
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